Happy Yet Disasterous day.

Happy Bday Farhan!

Hey people. Was at friends hse today as it was his bday today. Was there since 11 till around 1. Andrew came and fetch me and then we picked tsiminn, ian, rahul, sherwin and tek shern up. Afifi , ashraf, feeza came later on. Reached his hse and waited for the mom to prepare all the food. And we had our lunch there at around 12. Hope he enjoyed the company we gave him and im sorry for the disaster that happened as stated at the title. Really sorry bro. Hope he enjoyed his day though. Only people who were at his hse knew what happened. Anyway gtg Happy birthday again. Will be looking for desh later on as his bday is tomoro so wanna go wish him at 12 and have some 'fun' with the fella. Ciao yo!

the bday boy farhan

Tsi minn, farhan, farhan's mom

Tek shern

feeza and rahul

feeza

feeza and me

sherwin

Mr. Phang

Afifi

Ashraf

Tsi minn was being camera shy

Ian and tek shern

Mr.Phang with his muka steam

The love birds for the day

=)/=(?

Hey people its been a long time since i last blog. Been pretty lazy to blog. didnt have anything in mind. Came to blog today just so that it wont seem so dead. yesterdy skipped school and chilled at sherwin's hse. suppose to study but ended up watching a movie, Land Of the lost which was a pretty dumb movie. At around lunch andrew came and picked me up to have lunch with him. Then he came and chilled in my hse with somebody. Another 2 more weeks till exams starts. And i dont seem to be ready for it. hopefully ill be able to cope with everything im about to study. Later on will be going to farhan's hse awhile for his bday. Having a little eating session. And i hope 'she' is doing well with everything. Ciao bros!

Ian

Ian ass, sherwin, me

Sherwin, rahul

Unending hymms.

Aicheh calming scenery.

Yo zo! its been few days since i last blogged. didnt know what to do as there arent any pics to support them. After that friday i thought everything would turn out bad. But it seems i got to uncover truths which cleared up somethings which made everything feel better. Didnt really do anything on the other days. basically just hanged out with desh andrew. and also not forgetting mc jian joining him for dinner for quite a few days. At least now i guess nothing much is gonna happen. Not really gonna have anything to do about this anymore. Only having around 1 and a half months left till everything is done. expected the support i wanted but its ok la. I wonder what i would be doing after my exams are over lol. Better start saving some cash now or else its gonna be a boring life later on. Hopes from now on everyone is gonna do well and no more troubles are gonna happen. Expected 'something' to happen today but wasted my time thinking they would come. currently dam bored now. only listening to my itunes. Till here then ciaoo

whatever makes you happy.

You think that i have so much time to steal your friends from you? Its just a part of life that im going through to make friends. you re just being so childish to delete people as friends. You think this is a computer game? you think about whatever you said and done to me. What are those promises for? Why promise when they are not going to even exist from the start? you know that promise is a big word. I feel really naive for putting on so much hope. Many times i ve tried to cheat myself from the truth people has been saying but i dont listen to them. What do i get in return? I took care of you, gone through so many shits and what do i get? A sentence saying that Its good that we re being apart. wth is wrong with you? did i said i didnt wanna be friends with you? I went there to talk things out and you walk away on me. I admit i was rude. But you should be thankful that i didnt use harsh words on you. you should know that. And what are you trying to say thanks for showing me your 'love' today what is that? you dont even love me from the start and you expect me to show you more love today? dont you think i should not show it? you want me to move on and you re trying to say like that. and you better stop putting words in my mouth. I never said you disgust me. I never said it sucked being with you. Did i ever say that? you thik about it la. please stop being immature. think about this. I ve never thought of losing a friend and you want that to happen. Stop thinking that you re right all the time. You made a mistake of deleting me and all. Im not being happy like that. instead it got me thinking why are you like that? why showing your true colours now? arent you just doing the same as what the girl before did to me? You said that you ll not leave me and you even stress on that point that you ll not leave me. But you left and now we cant even have a bond of friendship. I put you through my prayers begging god to let you have a better life. I expected all this to happen but not this fast and not in this harsh way. Friends has been telling me to back off for good but why dont i listen? why am i so naive? Why do you have to do all this? but why am i just angry and not being like you? why i cant just erase everything? why? I loved you so much but what do i get? not even a spec of dirt from you. What ever you did wasnt even really sincere. Since you feel what you do is right go ahead continue doing it. You re just making every part of me break even more. All you need are you guy friends right? already said that even this little expectation will not come and it really is true. Delete all you want. erase me from your life if you thinks thats good. To me that act you re doing is making me really sad. So what if cant workout as lovers? why cant we be friends? Understand whatever im trying to say. go on ahead doing what you feel you happy with.

drowned by anger and sorrow.

YO! had been going out alot last few days. couldnt stand the fact that i was studying but nothing much is going in due to the distractions im having in my mind. Yesterday went to starcafe and met up with kia siang and nicol together with leon and andrew. yudesh came later on. kiasiang and nicol left around 12 and we chilled till around 2 plus when we decided to get guitars and play at the park at usj 16. Played till around 4 and we headed back home. leon andrew and desh sleptover my hse cause it was already really late. but we practically didnt sleep and chat a little when we go a little emotional and talked bout many things. this morning dropped yudesh home and we went and have our breakfast. andrew dropped me to find pui hwa and ameline. then chilled at taipan till lunch time when andrew asked me to go have lunch with him. he wanted to go McD and i saw someone there. What got me pissed is the fact that 'she' acts as if as im just a passerby in her life. Even the mom was friendlier. It really disapoints me to know this. I dont know but im just feeling really PISSED and really SAD to know all thats happened. But like what they say whats done is done, no point regretting which i ve never did regret helping so much. Too bad im not appreaciated , as i know i did my part and im not feeeling wrong about it. So whatever it is you ve got your guy friendsss with you that you need as im not needed. But at least i know what you really are made of now. So who cares right now.

I keep a journal of memories
I'm feeling lonely, I can't breathe
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

the situation....

tsi minn

Ian

Farhan

Today i skipped school cause there wasnt any exam for me. went to pizza hut to study with a bunch of classmates. But i didnt really study cause i just came out to chill. Didnt wanna stay at home.Had some fun face warping each other faces but only saved 3 of it cause i forgot to save the others. lol. after that went to meet up with dinesh cause he wanted have lunch then went infront of school awhile cause he wanted to duno do waht there. and to the pmr-ers tomoro will be their last day of exam. missing those times when i was having my exams but now im facing my big exams. wish i was the one having my holidays after tomoro. so much thinking going on. head is gonna be filled with white hairs soon.

As for you , i dont know what you re thinking. What i feel we re not even being a friend. Im just like a passer by to you. I know plenty of things which is just gonna be kept within myself. Suit yourself with whatever you re doing. If you think that 'they' are all you need im fine by it. After all i bet you ll do whatever you need just to be close to them. I dont know who else i can turn to. Dont even know who to trust. not even myself because i dont know whatever im doing is right or wrong. If only i could know what god's plan for us are. Right now really i dont feel even a piece of appreaciation from you. I dont even expect much but even that little expectation didnt come true. I dunno what else to say. Anyway best of luck in everything.i hope you know whats best for you.and study hard. Ciao.

You brought me to my knees thinking...

Kia siang,leon, me, kok weng,prem

Yo! went to church this morning , was freaking sleepy cause only had 4 hours of sleep. but amazing thing is i wasnt feeling sleepy at all , maybe its cause of the speech the priest gave. Part of his speech got through me but i wonder what use will come of it in the future though. Been hearing lots of things , knowing many people is getting hurt from it what more bout me? I wonder do people notice bout it. But i guess it doesnt matter much though afterall whatever i do wont matter. So backing off would be the best i guess. Although it hurts but nothing else can be done. Hoping for everything to go back to normal as soon as possible. Ciao!

Escape the Fate Something Lyrics:
So now you're running
it's hard to see clearly
When I make you angry
you're stuck in the past
And now you're screaming
So can you forgive me
I've treated you badly
But I am still here

Sometimes I wonder
Why I'm still waiting
Sometimes I'm shaking
that's how you make me
Sometimes I question why I'm still here
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy

Can you help me understand?

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else
Something to somebody else


You look at me through clouded eyes
I know you see through my lies
See the sky, see the stars
All of this could be ours
Out of sight, out of mind
we've been through this a thousand times
Turn your back and then you make me feel so crazy

Can you help me understand?

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else

You know I would wait for ever
Yes I would wait (I would wait)
You know I would wait forever
Yes I would wait

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant
Something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And I'm the one that should mean something
But still you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else
Something to somebody else

Something.

Me sharlene nicol leon

Me nicol prem

Was feeling dam bored so decided to blog. Yesterday had some prayers at home then afterthat mc called to go ac but didnt had the transport and didnt feel like going but headed to usj 11 padang instead. Went to see friends playing basketball then after that yum cha awhile at tejas till around 11.30. Den andrew called and went to melur awhile. As for today no plans yet so far. Freaking bored at home without any lunch. Heard there is gonna be a prom which gonna be organised by some usj 12 student. Thought of going with 'someone' but dont think will be able cause i guess i know the answer.if only things could go the way i want it. I ve a feeling this is such a boring blog lol. Its so unlike me to do such things. Anyone with any plans today? freaking bored here. The only thing i ve been doing is study , wishing that spm could be over as fast as possible. And im wanting a miracle to happen and shall see if it comes. till here ciao bros!

All the time I spend alone now won't comfort me S<3

stuck in that particular part of my head.

A boring sight.

me and larissa

Me and nicol.

ME.

Adui.. How i wish everything could go my way though..Just hoping to get that 1 miracle could maybe even change everyting. Problems have been piling up like crazy but its slowly being solved slowly. Knowing ill be sitting for my big exams in about 1 month and im still getting myself distracted by so many things. But i know ill do my best cause i have to prove i can do well to 'someone'. Anyway decided i would go to school today cause i skipped the last 2 days. It was freaking boring in school i slept through out the whole day in school. Tomoro wont be going to school again cause its a waste of time surely. Most probably will be going galavanting with dont know who. lol. Btw goodluck to all the pmr candidates and to the form 4's hoping that they will do well. i dont really have much to write so till here den, ciao!

S ♥ ?

Great night.

Helooo people! just came back from tanjung. Before that had dinner in Prime , Le Meridian at KL. Food was good but the price was really wonderful. and not forgetting i did not post that hello kitty up. back to the night. Food was really expensive. 6 of us ate and the bill came to around 950++ it was really shocking but lucky aunt had vouchers thats why we decided to go there. Later on went to tanjung to meet up with sharlene , yash , ameline. Nicol kiasiang and brenda mak was also there but they were sitting another table due to some reasons. But finally something happened and the 'war' between sharlene and nicol finnaly ended. its was a beautiful sight to see haha. they were hugging and all. Glad that things workout for both of them. especially her she seems much better now i guess. Left tanjung around 12.30. Kia siang was kind enough to fetch us all home. and thats about today. Really happy for those 2 haha. anyway Goodnight. sorry cause there are no pics or anything. dont really take much pics.

Cinta mendalam untuk mu menyebabkan saya menahan penderitaan ini.S<3!

Hello Kitty Is My Baby !

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII !!

MY NAME IS JOSHIE & IM SOOO IN LOVE WITH HELLO KITTY. * kawaiii nerhzXzXxzZz* HELLO KITTY IS MY DREAM DATE, I WOULD DIE TO DATE HELLO KITTY IF ONLY HELLO KITTY EXISTS IN REALITY.

HAHAHAHAHHA ( !!!!!!! )

xoxo, JOSHUABENJAMIN.

Chosen path.

I just dont understand what you re trying to do. Why desert yourself from me? Im trying to be your friend but you? you asked me to be your close friend and now what? you think by doing this only you re hurt? so many people around you are concerned about you. They re even more hurt with things you re doing right now. Im not trying to avoid you instead im just giving you the time to think what you want to do. I tried talking to you but the way you talk is as if im bothering you. Im trying to be selfish to myself by not caring about you but i cant. I keep thinking bout you, seeing you like this makes me worried and wanna care more bout you. I really hope that our friendship wont be lost. I dont give a damn whether ill be with you or not , i just wanna be a friend of yours and i hope you dont desert yourself from me. I hope that you chose the right path. Sorry if im annoying you.

New month?

What is this feeling?

Well a new month is here. Congrats to the bunnies as i guess they've talk things out with each other. Sounds like they would be having a better month in october. As for me i feel as if nothing is changing. Its still the same old days for me to go by. Maybe its meant to be this way. Im really trying my best to forget her but im just so weak i cant do it. I just dont know why but i really care alot. Whatever it is i hope she is happy with the path she chose. hope she finds the guy she truly wants afterall im not her choice of love which i hope could change but it will never happen right. hope that everything is changing for her and goodluck with whatever you do as i hope we still remain close but i dont know whether that could happen. As for now i hope she still tells me things but as whats happening right now i dont think its ever happening. Anyway till next time.. dont have to the mood to say anything else or rather i have nothing else in mind yet. Goodluck S!<3

I shouldn't love you but i want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but i can't move
I can't look away

And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know

It's gettin hard to
Be around you
Theres so much i can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look away

And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know

This emptyness is killin me
I'm wonderin why i've waited so long
Lookin back i realize it was always there to be spoken
Now i'm waitin here
Been waitin here

Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know